It has been a very hard time in my life the past couple of months. Since I have been back on campus at UNL this year things have simply been hard. There have been times of happiness and joy, but there has been a constant return to a season of difficulty and hardship. I know and believe that God is sovereign over all things, because recently (the last two days) when I have felt at my worst God has given me words of encouragement from unlikely sources.
On Tuesday afternoon, God called me away from campus and to seek him. After 4 cups of coffee, 3 cups of water, 5 pancakes, 2 eggs, 2 sausage links, and hash browns at IHOP for $5.99 (this was one source of joy) and three hours I read the entirety of the book of Job. For 37 chapters I read about Jobs pleas before the Lord and then for 4 chapters I read the Lords response. At the time it was not encouraging at all. I was wrestling with God. Here Job, a faithful servant of the Lord, cries out in his agony and despair while listening to the foolish rebuke and “comfort” from his friends and then God yells at him!
However, Job’s response has been on my heart like crazy the past two days. He says,
“I know that you can do all things; no plan of yours can be thwarted.
You asked, ‘Who is this that obscures my counsel without knowledge?’
Surely, I spoke of things I did not understand, things too wonderful for me to know.
You said, ‘Listen now, and I will speak; I will question you and you shall answer me.’
My ears had heard of you but now my eyes have seen you.
Therefore I despise myself and repent in dust and ashes.”
These bold phrases have been ringing in my heart and in my ears for two days now. I don’t even know how to repent sometimes and honestly when I first read this I didn’t want to say the things Job did. My suffering pales in comparison to Job’s yet, I know that God is listening, that he is present, and that he cares even in the silence. The Lord has given me two sources of encouragement this morning that I want to share with you all.
My friend Anne Garrison posted a poem on her blog, to the doubting, depressed or weary I would recommend reading it.
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An encouragement just wouldn’t be complete without a little John Piper. I had received this blog in an email almost a month ago, but had not read it until this morning (like that wasn’t the Lord’s sovereignty at work!). The last section was particularly encouraging!
Posted in Meditations
Tags: Bible, Encouragement, Jesus, Job, John Piper, Poetry